SHOOT SELF WITH YOU / A RECURSIVE NOVEL
with
you
shoot
me
Recursive Novel · Main Maze Edition
CHROMATIC KEY / Don't rush to unlock it
you
me
her
with
sound
recall
？
Color is not decoration. Font size is not high or low. House numbers also don't obey page numbers.
The last page fell off first.
it falls
Amon
At the feet, face down, like a letter sent back from the future. No one touches it. Everyone in the room is waiting
Amon
Bend over, yes
Amon
No bends.
her
He just looked down for a while, and the light in his eyes dropped.
her
Know what's written on the back of the paper.
It reads
you
put
me
After taking the photo
You were just born.
But "
you
"Not yet.
Jia Rui hasn't said yet "
me
Must see
you
", Ricky's hand has not stopped in mid-air, and Zichou has not yet hidden himself in those overly calm words. The white cloth is still at a high place and has not fallen. A name has not emerged yet. Everyone's face is temporarily their own.
only
Amon
Saw the ending ahead of time.
her
He raised his head and looked at the empty chair.
"
you
Why are you here?
？
"
The chair didn't answer.
Because the people sitting there will not hear this sentence for many years.
RECURSIVE ROOM 01
Door 11
?
The first page that fell off the end
you
Come too late, come too early.
It was too late because they had already finished talking. The breaths had left her lips and the hand had moved away from the other. One person once turned away, unwilling to be questioned again; another person once lowered his head and held a request in his throat.
you
When they arrived, only the shapes they left behind were left.
Too early because
you
I don't yet know who I will become.
you
I thought I was just here to read
Amon
。
you
Sit down, turn to the first page, and prepare to
her
Looking for it in the expression
her
。
Amon
But I'm already waiting on the last page
you
。
her
Than
you
Read it first
you
。
her
know
you
will be in
her
say "
me
Breathe a sigh of relief and will be
her
say "
you
When you suddenly feel pushed away, you will
her
Look harder when you look away.
her
even know
you
Mistaking your own sympathy for a key, thinking that as long as you are gentle enough, you can open it
her
No room was given to anyone.
her
no blame
you
。
her
Just take the key off the door and put it back
you
Palm.
"This is not
me
's door,"
her
Say, "Yes
you
of. "
you
When he lowered his head, his palms were empty.
Look up again
Amon
We have returned to a place where the story has not yet begun.
IMAGE TRACE / 02
The empty chair was obtained first
you
outline.
RECURSIVE ROOM 02
Door 01
you
Remember the empty chair first
you
There are two chairs in the room.
Amon
Take a seat. The other one is empty.
Jia Rui stood between two chairs and said: "
me
Must see
you
。"
When he said this, his jaw tightened slightly
sound
It's not very high, but it emphasizes "must" more heavily than "see". It seems that what really pains him is not not being able to see
Amon
but
Amon
Still possessing the ability not to be seen by him.
Amon
Look at him.
her
His eyes were steady, almost tired. It's not that there are no fluctuations, but that every fluctuation is quickly eliminated
her
Press back.
her
It seems that he already knows that as long as his eyes are softer, the other party will regard that softness as a crack in the door; as long as the corner of his mouth moves, the other party will think that there is still room for redemption in the story.
So
her
Keep your face quiet.
But quiet can also be misunderstood.
Jia Ruicong
her
Waiting was heard in the silence.
you
from
her
I heard pain in the silence.
Amon
Maybe I'm just breathing.
Empty chairs heard nothing.
it is better than
you
they are closer
her
。
Jia Rui said again: "
me
Must see
you
。"
The second time I said it, the words "
me
"Suddenly it broke away from him. It flew out of his throat, circled around the room, couldn't find a body to stay on, and finally fell into the empty chair.
many years later
you
Just sit there.
"
me
Must see
you
。"
you
Hear yourself thinking this.
Amon
turn
you
。
"So?
？
"
you
Be
her
Ask live.
you
I originally thought urgency was proof of love. Yes
her
eyes let
you
See, urgency may just be evidence that a person is overwhelmed by his own needs. The deeper the need, the easier it is for the person on the opposite side to become a shore.
Jia Rui did not do it maliciously
Amon
As a shore.
He is just too afraid of water.
This makes him more worthy of sympathy and also makes him
Amon
More tired.
her
The fatigue is here
her
Not only do you have to reject someone, you also have to bear the feeling of that person sinking after rejection.
her
Said: "Stop torturing
me
。"
After saying this
her
His eyes moved to the side for a moment before returning to Jia Rui's face. The moment was short, but it cracked the entire sentence. It's not a hesitation about whether I still love you, but a subtler pain
her
Know that you must speak hard enough to be heard
her
I also know that every word I speak hard will in turn cut myself.
"
you
Get out. "
Jia Rui didn't move immediately.
you
Neither.
Amon
I looked at him and then looked at him again.
you
。
her
Suddenly I understand that there will be a kind of person in the future who is more difficult to ask away than Jia Rui.
that is watching
her
people.
RECURSIVE ROOM 03
door 07
in
Amon
delete this paragraph
No.
her
I walked back from the unwritten post and deleted the last sentence of the previous paragraph.
"Don't put
me
Written as a person who is constantly being watched. "
her
Say.
you
Asked: "Can
you
Watched indeed. "
"
me
See also. "
So
her
Change that sentence to
There will be a kind of person in the future who thinks they are watching
her
but didn't realize that he had also been
her
Watch.
After the modification is completed
her
Didn't leave.
her
stand
you
Next to the sentence, check it line by line.
you
write
her
tired
her
Asked: "Where
？
"
you
Talk about eyes.
her
let
you
Look again.
So
you
See, tiredness is not just in the eyes. it's in
her
Before answering, he gently tightened his lips.
her
When I heard Jiarui repeating the same sentence, his shoulders did not drop immediately.
her
Take a very shallow breath, as if you don't want this breath to become the other person's new hope.
you
write
her
Painful.
her
Then asked: "Where
？
"
you
You can no longer just talk about expressions.
her
The pain refused to fully appear on his face. It always leaks out from other places: the fingers stay on the corners of the clothes for a little longer; after finishing a sentence, the tip of the tongue seems to be touching the next sentence that has not yet been spoken
her
Looking to the side is not to escape, but to gain a small space for yourself where you don't have to respond immediately.
you
Delete "pain".
Rewrite those details.
Amon
Nod.
This time
her
allow
you
Continue.
RECURSIVE ROOM 04
door 03
me
The mirror breaks a step later than the person
IMAGE TRACE / 03
Mirror refused to be returned
her
only the ones you are watching will be returned
you
。
Amon
Stand in front of a mirror.
Not in the mirror
her
。
Sitting inside
you
。
you
facing away
her
reading a book about
her
novel.
you
His shoulder blocked most of the page, revealing only one sentence
me
use
you
shoot
me
。
Amon
Raise your hand.
you
No hand raised in the mirror.
her
His fingertips stopped in front of the glass, just a little away from his own reflection. But there is no reflection of myself there, only
you
the back of the head
you
shoulder
you
The neck bends slightly when turning pages.
her
Suddenly I understood
her
If you want to borrow
you
To see oneself, one must first pass through
you
。
passed
you
life, through
you
People who have loved and lost, through
you
fear of rejection, through
you
I always want to interpret silence as some kind of profound habit.
her
Arrive
you
The eyes have been slightly changed by these things.
you
What is seen is not untouched
Amon
。
her
What you see is not your untouched self.
"
me
use
you
shoot
me
。"
her
Read it once.
The word "use" fell down, like something too heavy.
her
He frowned.
This change is very slight. There are no obvious lines between the eyebrows, but the eyes suddenly change from the ones in the mirror
you
He took half a step back.
her
Hear the possession hidden in that sentence: because
me
I can't see myself, so
me
Want to borrow
you
eyes; because
me
Can't confirm myself, so
me
to let
you
love for
me
confirm; because
me
Afraid of disappearing, so
me
want
you
keep telling
me
，
me
Still there.
Jia Rui once borrowed this
her
Look at yourself.
you
I'm borrowing this too
her
look
you
。
you
in
her
Identify your own hesitation in your hesitation
her
When you say "wait a minute", make up for all the pauses you didn't have time to say.
you
Touched, not just because I understood
her
also because
you
Finally found myself in another person's face.
Amon
There is no denying this feeling.
her
Just reach out and gently remove "use" from the sentence.
A very small hole was left in its place.
The wind comes in from there.
her
Put "
with
"Put it in."
with
you
shoot
me
。
in the mirror
you
Finally raised his head.
RECURSIVE ROOM 05
No way
This happened before Ricky reached out
also happens in
her
After reaching out.
Ricky walks towards
Amon
At this time, there is a kind of heart-melting urgency in the movements.
her
Be willing to give, be willing to get close, and be willing to let your body be the answer first.
her
of
sound
Often a little faster than the other party's hesitation, as if as long as
her
If the temperature is sent first, the cold will not happen in time.
Amon
There was no immediate rejection.
her
Look at Ricky.
There was a brief relaxation in his eyes. It's not delivery, nor is it complete trust. It's more like a person who has been standing and finally sees a place to sit next to him, but has to confirm whether the chair is stable first.
Ricky asked: "Is it okay?
？
"
Amon
Said: "You can try it. "
There is air between the words "try".
It doesn't promise results, nor does it talk about proximity as destiny. It only allows this moment to exist: the hand can be raised, the body can be slightly forward, the temperature can be reached; if it is uncomfortable, it can also stop.
This is "
with
"Getting a body for the first time.
It is not one person completing himself with the other person, but two people entering together into a movement that is not yet known.
Ricky's hand came up.
Amon
His shoulders did not retreat.
But just when his hand was about to fall, the future suddenly came from behind. In the future, there will be too quick care, there will be readiness to speak out for others, and there will be the desire to announce reconciliation in advance. Actions that have not yet taken place are already taking place
Amon
A very faint shadow is cast in the eyes.
her
His shoulders moved.
Not back away.
It's just that the body says before words: slow down.
Did Ricky see it?
？
Maybe I saw part of it.
her
His hand stopped in mid-air for a very short moment, and then continued forward. That moment did not disappear. it has remained
her
Between them, it's like an unused exit.
Amon
Later, I came back from behind the white cloth and found that moment.
her
Stretch it out.
Long enough to hold a sentence
"Wait a minute."
IMAGE TRACE / 04
Two people did not merge, so the third person was able to breathe.
RECURSIVE ROOM 06
door 04
inside
A third person appears between the two people
her
No
Amon
nor Ricky.
her
No name.
her
It only happens when two people really want to stop.
Ricky comes closer
her
Then there is the left side of the body
Amon
Didn't leave
her
Then there is the body on the right side.
her
Breathe through the unfilled space between the two of you.
Once someone says "
me
know
you
What do you need?"
her
Just become thinner.
Once someone says "
you
Already ready"
her
It almost disappears.
once
Amon
Said "Wait a minute" and Ricky actually stopped
her
reappeared.
This third person is "
with
"。
"
with
"Not after fusion."
me
them.
"
with
"Yes
me
Still not
you
，
you
Still not
me
can
me
They did not withdraw from each other.
Amon
Looking at this nameless person, I suddenly remembered something that I hadn't said yet.
"
you
Don't know
me
That's it
you
?
？
"
The third man shook his head.
her
reminder
Amon
：
There is another sentence behind it.
"
you
That's it
me
?
？
"
question mark
make
her
Survive.
RECURSIVE ROOM 07
door 09
inside
The white cloth floats back from the future
IMAGE TRACE / 05
After losing sight, watching still doesn't stop.
The white cloth was not supposed to fall until much later.
But this time, it passed the room early.
It first covered Jia Rui's "must", then covered Ricky's hand that had not yet fallen, and finally stopped at
Amon
in front of.
Amon
Not wrapped.
her
Standing behind the cloth, the face disappears, but the breath makes the cloth surface float outward.
you
Can't see
her
I want to see it even more.
you
Start guessing from the ups and downs on the cloth
her
expression. Is that little bump the bridge of the nose?
？
There was a slight tremble there, was it the lips?
？
The cloth suddenly stopped
her
Are you holding your breath?
？
Amon
He said through the cloth: "My face is gone
you
Still makes a face. "
her
of
sound
Because there is a layer of cloth between them, they appear closer than usual. Those subtle vibrations that would have been taken away by the shape of the mouth, eyes and expressions now fall directly into the
you
ears.
you
hear
her
At the end of the sentence, I was not completely out of breath. When I heard the short pause between the words "still", I also heard
her
I'm not happy that I said it accurately.
"No one can see
you
。"
The words came from another person's mouth.
It's like comfort.
It's also like a premature conclusion.
Amon
There was no immediate reply after the announcement.
her
Raise your hand and put your palm on it. The five fingers left only vague shades, like a person who is still there but refuses to hand over his face.
you
He also raised his hand.
The two hands overlapped through the white cloth.
The temperature cannot really be reached.
Just because I didn't arrive
you
Neither of them can claim to have met the other.
Amon
Said softly: "That's okay. "
There is no victory in these four words.
It's just that no one is moving forward for the time being.
RECURSIVE ROOM 08
door 02
in
sound
in
her
Came back before
IMAGE TRACE / 06
sound
Borrowing a breath, but not getting a new owner.
One day
Amon
Didn't show up.
her
of
sound
Arrived first.
"
me
In. "
sound
Across the empty chair, the chair does not become a person.
sound
Through the white cloth, the white cloth does not grow a face. it continues forward into
you
chest.
you
As you inhale, hear
her
。
you
When you exhale, those two words come from
you
out of the body.
"
me
In. "
you
Startled.
Who is there?
？
Yes
Amon
borrow
you
I tried my lungs again, but still
you
borrow
Amon
of
sound
Make sure you haven't disappeared
？
Jia Rui once needed
her
say "
me
In". Every answer was like filling a small piece of ground under his feet. But the more he asked
Amon
There is less ground under your feet.
me
In.
me
love
you
。
me
Will be there.
me
Will always be there.
These words come from
her
When it comes out of the mouth
sound
Not exactly the same. The first sentence is very light, as if I am only willing to take charge of this moment. There's a slight hesitation in the second sentence, as if "love", once uttered, is being asked to take on more than it is. The third sentence is more comforting. After finishing the fourth sentence
Amon
His lips closed slowly.
her
It seems that I heard the weight of "always".
sound
leave
her
Later, these differences will be lost.
they are in
memory
Arranged neatly inside, it becomes the same guarantee.
Amon
from
you
Hearing himself in his breathing, he suddenly said: "That's not right."
"What's wrong
？
"
"
you
Turn four sentences into one sentence. "
So
her
let
you
Breathe again.
In the first breath, just say "
me
"。
In the second breath, don't say "in" for the time being.
Let "
me
There is a distance that a person can leave between " and "at".
RECURSIVE ROOM 09
Door 10
noodles
Zichou leaves from normality
IMAGE TRACE / 07
The neat spaces cannot accommodate the hesitation of a living person.
"
you
Yes
me
fantasy
came out. "
Zichou said.
He didn't say this in a harsh way. What's truly disturbing is precisely its calmness. As if just pointing out an established fact
you
face
you
of
sound
、
you
pain
you
Yes
me
The retention belongs to
me
Weather happening inside.
Amon
Look at him.
her
There is no rush to prove that you are real.
her
There was a little confusion in his eyes at first, and then that confusion quickly turned into concentration.
her
It's like taking this sentence in your hand and turning it around to see what's hidden behind it.
if
me
Yes
you
of
fantasy
then
you
Why are you running away?
？
if
me
The pain only occurs when
you
inside
you
After leaving, it will follow
you
Are you leaving?
？
if
you
You can use the sentence "
fantasy
"Put
me
Take back your body
me
Where else can I get it right?
you
say no
？
her
No question was asked sentence by sentence.
her
Just say
"
you
Don't know
me
That's it
you
?
？
"
The words flew far forward.
It almost hit Zi Chou.
almost hit
you
。
Yes
Amon
Didn't make it the answer.
her
Then ask
"
you
That's it
me
?
？
"
The first sentence brings the two people together.
The second sentence immediately checks whether this involvement is turning into an annexation.
Zichou did not stop at
question mark
inside.
He said: "07 report, everything is normal."
At that moment, his eyes seemed to have crossed
Amon
falls towards a place that does not require a response
her
far away.
sound
It has also changed. The language that was still vibrating between the two people just now suddenly became straight and neat, and each word seemed to have found its own grid.
Amon
Still outside the grid.
her
Question: "
you
Who are you talking to?
？
"
Zichou didn't answer.
Maybe he's gone.
The body is still there, that one is being
Amon
The person who called out retreated from the normal situation.
Many years later
you
Remember this passage as
"
you
Don't know
you
That's it
me
，
me
That's it
you
?
？
"
Amon
hear
you
of
memory
turn around and correct
"Don't replace
me
put
question mark
Say it as an answer. "
you
Suddenly I understood that misremembering could also be a wish.
you
I really hope that they can communicate with each other, so I arbitrarily stitched the two questions into one sentence to fully recognize each other.
Yes
Amon
What remains is not recognition.
It's implicated.
It's also a difference.
her
Refuse to give in to love
fantasy
sympathy or novels sew two people together without any exit.
RECURSIVE ROOM 10
door 05
noodles
name ratio
her
Arrived late, but better than
her
saved first
IMAGE TRACE / 08
The name remains, and people continue to retreat behind the name.
The pieces of paper began to fall.
Each one is like a name.
they fall on
Amon
On shoulders, knees, feet.
Amon
Didn't reach out to take it. The name is too light, but it may be very heavy after catching it.
"
Amon
"Fall down first.
her
Look up.
This is what someone calls it
her
when
her
A name that will bring you back. It carries the warmth of relationship and the limitations left by relationship. A Rui screams
Amon
，
with
Ricky barks
Amon
not the same
Amon
. Every call comes from
her
It takes a little bit of a different shape with you.
Later, another name fell down.
Huang Meng.
Amon
Looking at it, he did not approach immediately.
Huang Meng is not
Amon
The answer behind.
A name cannot completely bring a person back to reality from the role. it can only remind
you
：
you
Reading, sympathizing, explaining all the way
Amon
not all of this person's life.
you
Know a name and still stand outside the door.
Amon
Go to the door surrounded by pieces of paper.
There is another one inside the door
her
。
More silent, more distant, with no obligation to continue the story.
Amon
ask
her
："
you
Yes
me
?
？
"
The person inside the door didn't answer.
her
Turn off the lights.
This is not rejection
Amon
。
It is a person taking back the parts of himself that he did not give to the role.
In the darkness, the name still stands out in white.
People retreat deeper.
RECURSIVE ROOM 11
door 08
you
question mark
No page number
IMAGE TRACE / 09
question mark
It's not that the answer is insufficient, it's that the differences still exist.
All pages are sorted, only
question mark
No.
It can follow any sentence.
me
love
you
?
？
me
Are you there?
？
you
see
me
Is it done?
？
you
What I saw was
me
?
？
you
That's it
me
?
？
question mark
Bend your body, and there is still a little foot on the ground below. It didn't fall completely, nor did it stand up straight.
Amon
Love the incomplete pose.
Periods are too easy to reassure people.
Jia Rui needs a full stop
her
Will always be there.
Ricky also needs periods sometimes
me
We are ready.
Zi Chou finally hid in full stop: everything is normal.
you
Also eager for a full stop
me
finally understand
Amon
。
Amon
Pick up the periods one by one and put them on the table.
They look like a row of tiny end points.
her
Pick one from the middle and lift it slightly upward.
The period was pulled out of a curved body and turned into
question mark
。
"Ask again."
her
Say.
you
Do you really understand
me
？
After understanding
me
Is there any more order?
you
unexpected rights
？
you
Do you really sympathize?
me
？
After sympathy
me
Can you still refuse to be
you
The person in my heart who deserves sympathy
？
you
is it true
with
me
Together
？
Together in the future
you
Can you not replace it?
me
Finished
？
Amon
put
question mark
handed to
you
。
It's very light.
you
But it takes two hands to catch it.
RECURSIVE ROOM 12
No way
No third opening
Amon
IMAGE TRACE / 10
memory
Made something I won't refuse
you
of
Amon
。
In the third opening, there was only one chair in the room.
you
It's been a long wait.
you
know
Amon
Where you used to sit, which way your head would turn, and when you put your hands down, your fingers wouldn't be fully together.
you
remember
her
Always take a very shallow breath before answering, remember
her
Occasionally I laugh, but the smile comes quickly but doesn't always reach my eyes.
you
Use these details
her
Put the chair back on.
her
appeared.
you
know this is not
Amon
。
This is
memory
According to
you
Made as needed
Amon
。
her
than real
Amon
understand better
you
。
you
every pause
her
Everyone happens to know the reason
you
Every time I feel lonely
her
They will always say "
me
In".
her
No more misunderstandings, no more suddenly looking away, no more letting a sentence stop at the end of the sentence.
you
An uneasy place.
you
almost in love
her
。
In the mirror, the real
Amon
stand
you
behind.
her
Not angry.
That makes
you
Even more ashamed.
her
just watching
you
How to use
her
The details make one won't refuse
you
of
her
。
"
you
Who are you talking to?
？
"
her
asked.
you
Look back.
There is no one behind me.
Look at the chair again
memory
made
Amon
Gone too.
only remains
you
The mouth is still moving.
"
me
In. "
you
Say.
sound
Belong to
you
。
The tone is like
her
。
you
Finally, I don't know whether I am commemorating or possessing.
So
you
Stop.
This time, the pause didn't immediately translate into meaning.
It's just an empty space.
Amon
Can come back.
You don't have to come back.
RECURSIVE ROOM 13
door 06
me
Every time I come back, the entrance moves
IMAGE TRACE / 11
Coming back is not recovery. Each entrance has moved.
you
put
me
Photograph it.
me
borrow
you
eyes looking
me
。
me
in
you
I saw someone watching in my eyes
me
of
you
。
you
in
me
I saw a quilt in my eyes
you
seen
you
。
you
Back away.
you
back entry
me
。
you
forward.
you
The approach also enters
me
。
me
Look away.
you
Lose your own reflection.
you
Question: "
me
where
？
"
me
Said: "In
you
ask
me
place. "
you
Asked: "Then
you
where
？
"
me
Said: "In
you
not found
me
place. "
you
Start looking.
me
from
you
looking for
me
appear in the form.
you
The more urgent
me
More like a runaway.
you
The more gentle
me
More like a person waiting to be understood.
if
you
Already decided
me
Who is it, no matter who it is
me
Which door do you walk through?
you
will be found
you
decided
me
。
So
me
Go around
you
behind, cover
you
eyes.
you
said: "
me
still audible
you
。"
me
Said: "That is
sound
no
me
。"
you
said: "
me
remember
you
face. "
me
Said: "That is
memory
no
me
。"
you
said: "
me
know
you
Who is. "
me
Take your hands away.
"That's
you
。"
you
Open your eyes.
The corridor has turned back.
the farthest
me
Entering the nearest door. latest
me
Looking back
you
. middle
me
watching
me
The two of us seemed to have already experienced the next reunion.
This is [[recursive live stream|back]].
Not back to square one.
Every time I come back, "
me
"and"
you
"The owners have all been changed.
RECURSIVE ROOM 14
No way
The novel suddenly enters
Amon
At this point, it should have been
you
Keep writing.
But the words left
you
hand, enter
Amon
。
her
I found myself sitting in the middle of a novel.
all around
you
replace
her
What remains
her
eyes, breathing, fingers, hesitation, tiredness; Jia Rui's urgency, Ricky's approach, Zichou's sudden straightness
sound
white cloth, empty chair, name
question mark
。
surrounded by these things
her
like a group of acquaintances
her
but don't fully know
her
people.
Amon
Look at them one by one.
her
Go to Jia Rui first.
Jia Rui is still saying "
me
Must see
you
"。
Amon
Didn't shut him up.
her
Just take that "must" out of his mouth and put it in his hand. It's hot, like a person's fear of disappearing has been compressed into a tiny hard lump.
her
Give it back to Jia Rui.
"This is
you
of. "
her
Say.
then
her
Walk up to Ricky.
Ricky's hand was still in mid-air.
Amon
Didn't push away.
her
Lift your hand and stop it there.
Leave a little distance between your hands.
"Here is
me
theirs. "
her
Say.
finally
her
Go to Zi Chou.
Zichou is still reporting that everything is normal.
Amon
He didn't ask again who he was talking to.
her
Standing in front of him, he said softly
"
me
hear
you
left. "
ugly
sound
There was a pause.
Maybe just take a breath.
Maybe nothing has changed.
Amon
No pursuit.
her
turn
you
。
"
you
yet
？
"
you
I don't know what to give back to myself.
you
Sympathy?
？
you
explanation?
？
you
in
her
Do you recognize yourself on your face?
？
Amon
Waited for a while.
her
No replacement
you
Select.
RECURSIVE ROOM 15
No way
with
Not a gentle word
with
you
shoot
me
。
"
with
"It looks very light, but it's actually harder than "using" it.
"Use" only needs to determine the purpose.
me
I need to see myself, so I borrow
you
；
me
Need to be loved, so stay
you
；
me
The story needs to be complete, so explain
you
。
"
with
"But it requires people to constantly lose certainty.
with
you
together
me
Must admit
you
will change
me
but does not therefore belong to
me
。
with
you
together
me
Can be obtained from
you
I see myself in my eyes, but I can't ask those eyes to always face
me
。
with
you
together
me
can be
you
The pain touches me, but I can't claim it
me
Already replaced
you
It hurts.
with
you
together
me
must be allowed
you
in
me
Most want to understand
you
Where it says
No.
Amon
standing "
with
"Inside.
It's not a house.
It's more like a distance between two people.
Get closer and you can hear breathing.
Step back a little more and let the other person have the unheard part.
Reach out but don't replace me
her
Hold tight.
I saw it, but I didn't declare that I had finished it.
"
with
"There are no guarantees.
It only has a body that is constantly adjusting.
RECURSIVE ROOM 16
No way
you
from
her
born in the eyes
IMAGE TRACE / 12
her
no cause
you
only exists
you
But because
her
Born looking back.
Now, the last page has fallen again.
This time it's right side up.
Amon
Already knowing what was written on it, I still bent down to pick it up.
her
The movement is very slow. It's not because of fatigue, nor to create solemnity, it's just that Zhi Li
her
A little far
her
Need to bend your knees.
The novel almost has to find meaning for this action again.
Amon
Look up.
The novel immediately goes quiet.
her
hand the paper
you
。
you
See the sentence at the beginning
you
put
me
After taking the photo
me
Only then did I realize that it turned out that
you
The person photographed was not
me
。
It's you.
you
When I first read this, I thought it was a reversal: the viewer was finally seen.
Now it is no longer a reversal.
It is a responsibility that happens slowly.
you
look
Amon
The longer you look, the less you can pretend that your gaze has no weight.
you
replace
her
Save the details and maybe put
her
Get stuck in details
you
willing to sympathize
her
you may also create one that is more suitable for you out of sympathy.
Amon
；
you
put
her
written into novels
her
Also go back and revise from the novel
you
。
her
Not because
you
Just exist.
you
But because
her
Looking back, I saw for the first time how I existed.
you
put
me
Photograph it.
me
use
you
shoot
me
。
me
discover
me
in use
you
。
me
Pause.
me
Change your words.
with
you
shoot
me
。
Take a picture of that one
you
with
me
A self that appears temporarily and does not belong to anyone.
it sometimes grows
Amon
face.
Sometimes he has the face of Jia Rui waiting for an answer.
Sometimes it's Ricky's hand that stops in mid-air.
Sometimes Zi Chou suddenly becomes calm when he leaves the relationship.
sound
。
sometimes it's just
you
As I read this, a small void appeared in my chest.
Amon
Look at that blank space.
"
you
Don't know
me
That's it
you
?
？
"
you
There was no rush to answer.
her
Asked again
"
you
That's it
me
?
？
"
question mark
Still.
The distance is still there.
you
We have not become the same person.
But something has passed through
her
arrive
you
passed through again
you
return
her
. Every time it comes back, it changes its body and leaves behind some parts that cannot be possessed by anyone.
Amon
Turn over the last page.
On the back is the first sentence.
After the first sentence, there is the empty chair.
Someone finally appeared on the chair.
Not Jia Rui.
Not Zi Chou.
Not Ricky.
Neither
Amon
。
I just learned to be seen by my own eyes
you
。
So
you
put
me
After taking the photo
You were just born.
AFTERIMAGE / second reading entrance
Along the colors, the owner of the pronoun can be found.
Following the font size, you can find people approaching or leaving.
Along the house number, rather than in text order, the eleven small characters would spell out a question.
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