Jia Rui played the three roles of B, Xu Jinjiang and Feng Rui in the movie "Human Surrender". This is the text he wrote after performing the drama "The Last Rehearsal" in the movie. The text he wrote before the performance - "Human Surrender | This is the final rehearsal! It's true! It's all true! 》can be read together with this text.
After the performance, many friends came to talk to me. Lao Gao said that I made myself very dirty every time after acting. Siri was worried about me and asked if I was in a better mood. Yudes said why I sacrifice myself every time. Good people will be rewarded. Paopao Sheep said that she likes me acting very much. In reality, I always make her feel distressed. He Fa said thank you to me.
I didn't understand what everyone said. What on earth is worthy of gratitude, distress, and worry? How could I sacrifice myself? Not aware of it at all. But it's true that it gets really dirty every time.
The show started with us sitting on the stage meditating. I hoped we could feel something about the audience, but I must admit that I felt nothing. This was an undoubted failure for me.
I keep my eyes open
But can't see anything.
I open my ears
But no sound could be heard.
I stick out my nose
But there is no smell.
I open my mouth
But no words came out.
I hold my arms up
Unable to lift anything heavy.
I spread my legs
Can't go anywhere.
I am nothingness
I am empty
There is nothing inside me.
In the middle of the performance, I really wanted to run away. Several audience members walked out of the auditorium. They didn't know whether to leave the show or go to the toilet. Take me with them, I said. This is complete failure, I can't go on, take me away.
Binbin really saved the scene. She pushed all of this at a time when we were completely stagnant and could only repeat it over and over again. After a lot of acting, He Fa popped up and said that it would not be good for her to end. I know He Fa is acting, but I really want to refute, this is good, this is good. But I have no strength left.
I couldn't listen to what they said, and I couldn't stand up. I looked around the whole place, trying to find a tool, a knife, a hammer or something. I wanted to kill them all.
Thank God there weren't any dangerous goods, otherwise we might have been in the legal press. I untied the plastic rope on the stage and strangled their necks. It was the prop I had set up an hour ago.
I woke up when I grabbed Amen, Zichou and Binbin by the neck. I remembered again that they were my friends and it turned out that we were acting.
So the play has to go on. We go back to the schedule we discussed a few days ago and follow the lines in the script. Now it's the end.
I would cover everyone with a white cloth on the ground. We would go to the back and sneak out. There was only a white cloth left on the stage, and we seemed to have disappeared. It's a magic trick.
We walked to the end of the field as usual, and Amon suddenly raised his head and asked me: So is this what you want? You want to be in a place where no one is around so that no one can find you. This was a line outside the script. I was confused by the question and said: Yes, yes. I don't know if this answer was out of wanting to end the scene, or if I felt that she really asked a question that was particularly critical to me. I don't know, but I used all my strength to vent and roar: Yes, yes.
Yesterday I promised to discuss the new script with Bubble Sheep. When I woke up, I felt a sharp pain in my throat and felt dizzy. I had a cold. I sent a message saying that I would not go because I had a cold, but it was not because of the cold. It was not that serious. I spent a day at home yesterday, and suddenly I wanted to thank you all, thank you Amenzi, Chou Binbin, Lao Gao, Siri, Judeshi Bubble Lamb Slices... Thank you all, although I don't know why I want to thank you.
Now I want to go to a place where there is no one, so that no one can see me.
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Postscript
Jia Rui was born in Tai'an, Shandong Province in 1999. He has studied film for many years and is a double alumnus of Hu Bo, the director of "The Elephant Sitting on the Floor". After getting in-depth contact with him during the filming and rehearsal period, I found that Jia Rui is really talented. He has a kind of determination that many people lack.
He often looked up to the sky and stared with his big eyes. When he was drunk, he would also curse. Then he dropped his head sharply, moving down his spine, shrinking into a shrimp-like shape. He made a short film about praying for rain, and I fell in love with it at first sight.
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